Loss For Words
I just returned from Summit Youth Leaders Conference held at Stone Church in Yakima, WA. I knew from the statements of others that I would have an amazing time. But really, I had no idea.
There aren’t words to describe how I feel right now, but I’ll try. At this moment I’m energized, yet completely exhausted (and apparently contradicting), light-years beyond excited, full of hope for the future. The lyrics to the ‘theme’ song of the weekend describe how I feel completely;
“Awaken my dreams – Passion arise – In Jesus’ name confusion I bind – Restore to me life /\- Breath on these dry bones – Faithful, faithful!”
I’ve never lost sight of my passion for missions, but had definitely fizzled recently(something I was not excited to admit). I was starting to question my calling when I wasn’t receiving returns to emails of inquiry about a specific organization I was particularly excited about serving with. A couple weeks ago a good friend said to me, “Lauren, maybe God just wanted to see if you would say ‘Yes!’” This stirred something inside of me. I’ve had my heart set on India for some time – I had envisioned myself helping girls who had been forced into the human trafficking industry. To be perfectly honest, my heart breaks to think I might not be called to go to that area of the world. The strings of my heart were attached to India – God wouldn’t really sever those ties, would He??
Here’s what I’m getting to – I’ve come to the realization that its not for me to say where God does or does not want me to go. Honestly, I doubt I’ll really know for quite a while. I’m trying to be content with knowing that He has an amazing plan for my future. I know I’m going to accomplish great things for His Kingdom. I might not end up where I origionally thought, but that’s OK. My passion for young people isn’t restrained to the borders of one continent. I’m confident that I’ll fall in love with whatever country He wants me to be in ministry at. He just wants to know that my response will stay the same!
On a sad, and slightly random note, my camera is broken. The screen is cracked and I have no idea as to how it happened. Very aggrivating! So sorry to those who have a hard time reading without pictures. I’m not sure how to help you…
I’m excited to see what God has in store for you, my dear, but I’m not sure that I’m ready for it. I have a feeling that His request for you won’t be small and insignificant.
I love you bunches and …you have me pegged…I really do prefer pictures with my words!
Don’t we all want to be Mother Teresa rather than the sunday school teacher in Sultan, Washington??:) But the awesome thing is God can use us in both places!! Keep your chin up lady you know He has a perfect plan:)